April 2021 Journal Challenge
The journaling reads: "If I could step back in time, I would spend more time with my grandma in doing all the things that she showed me. I was a young girl and I didn’t realize the importance until I was my own person. I was so busy starting my own life, that I never stopped to realize how little time she had left, until it was to late.
If I could step back in time, I would go to Church with her to sing from the hymnal. If I could only hear her sing “Amazing Grace”, once again.
If I could step back in time, I would walk into grandma’s house and see her reading her Bible. I would ask her to share her faith in God with me.
If I could step back in time, I would pick wild blackberries with her. I would ask you to teach me how to make your blackberry cobbler - so I can taste it once again.
If I could step back in time, I would pay more attention in helping her cook. I would ask her how she made her chicken and dumplings or what was the special ingredient in her fried chicken that made it always so good.
If I could step back in time, I would gladly help her home canning. I would pick the fresh tomatoes from the vines and ‘pop’ the freshly picked green beans with her in the backyard.
If I could step back in time, I would help her save seeds. I remember the folded paper towels of seeds on your kitchen table.
If I could step back in time, I would drive her to the graveyards to put flowers on the family graves. I would help her pay contribute to her parents, brother, sisters, my grandpa, my dad, and even a cousin that was buried by herself.
If I could step back in time, I would thank her for her sacrifice raising her children (my dad) as a widower. I would thank her for opening her home to the twenty-some orphans she offered a loving home to.
If I could step back in time, I could feel the warmth of her hug; to hear her say, “I love you” with her gentle voice; and to see her beautiful smile, one more time."
