I was thinking how I occasionally let outer circumstances, in this case work, take precedence over the more important and meaningful parts of my lifemy many blessingsand I wanted to create a piece that reflected this shallow thinking. I went through a hard time there, where each day I would wake up and decide NOT to let the negative thoughts of it take over, and each day when I went in, something new would occur. It seemed I could find no peace and before long, I was allowing these thoughts to pervade the majority of timethe result was that I felt like I was living in someone elses mindI was basically unhappynot at all like my usual self. I had let my focus shift to the negative aspects of my life at work, instead of renewing myself and refreshing my spirit with the wonderful life I had outside of work. With these thought dominating, I lost my focus, my perspective. My father had always taught us that it was within our ability to shift our viewpoint and focus on the positive. Finally I was able to do thisand the relief was so immense I cant put it into words.
There are several little points of symbolism in this lo:
1. I placed the hearts at the bottom of the page, to mirror where my hearts desires and fulfillment had been.
2. The halos are there, however warped and faded to reflect my many attempts to put my life back on the right path
3. The blobs all over the face are to depict the contorted view others must have had of me at this time.
4. The butterfly is so near the eye and yet she (me) couldnt see itthe eyes are cast downward.
5. The chaotic brush strokes in the hair, the neckare to show my confused thinking patterns
6. The moon is there, just out of reach to show that my inner self, God were there all along
7. I put a filter over the beautiful models face, taking the color from it and adding darkness in shadows to give her a lifeless appearance.
8. The Title: I was thinking in PROFILEnot looking at the whole picturemy wonderful lifenot looking at my life in its full perspective.
I must beg Sitas forgiveness for using her kit for this rather depressing depiction, but I find that many times scrapping is very therapeutic, a means of self-expression and ridding myself of the little demons that crop up from time to time.
TFL
Kathi
PST @ Picleberrypop, Legends
http://www.pickleberrypop.com/shop/product.php?productid=5292&cat=0&page=2
and the moon from PST@ Pickleberrypop, Mythic
http://www.pickleberrypop.com/shop/product.php?productid=3758&cat=0&page=3
TotallyWild Dezinez @ Deviant Scrap, Butterfly Cluster Brushes
TotallyWild Dezinez @ Deviant Scrap, On The Wall Cluster Brushes c
.and a ton of assorted brushes